I am not a New Year's resolution maker. Haven't been... ever? It always felt forced, unoriginal (lose weight, eat better, blah), unquantifiable (be nicer, huh?) and like I was setting myself up to fail.
But this year I am breaking my resolution to not create resolutions. This year I am setting one intention and one intention only -- to develop a regular meditation practice. Key word? Regular.
My parameters? Fifteen minutes once a day, twice if I'm feeling particularly motivated. Who am I kidding? Once is just fine for now.
I've already started -- I don't need no stinkin' Jan. 1 on my calendar to start something that's good for me. My practice is four days strong, my friends. Minus yesterday when I was just too exhausted and pretty sure I'd fall right to sleep on the living room floor.
I've been reading "Devotion," a memoir by Dani Shapiro about her search for meaning. Who can't relate to that? She's a Jewish yogi who loves both her faith and her yoga practice. She also practices meditation and offered this sentiment from one of her teachers: "Begin again."
Isn't that the truth? Sitting in meditation is all about bringing your mind back from wherever it flys off to, whether the past, present or future. I regularly visit all three -- worry about what I did or said in the past, things I need to do right now and more worry about the future, over which I logically know I have zero control.
"Begin again." Bring it back to the breath, back to the present moment.
It's an appropriate reminder for moving through a yoga practice, too, as I told my students during a recent class. You will always fall out of poses, your body will insist you take a break and your thoughts will drift up and out of your body, but you can always choose to begin again.