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Amid Manitou Incline glory, double amputee continues to fight demons

April 26, 2018 Updated: April 29, 2018 at 8:24 pm
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photo - Double amputee Mandy Horvath climbed the Manitou Incline on Monday on her hands becoming the first woman double amputee to accomplish the feat. Horvath returned to the base of the incline on Wednesday, April 25, 2018, to do some requested interviews by local medias. Horvath has become a celebrity since her climbing video has gone viral.  (Photo by Jerilee Bennett, The Gazette)
Double amputee Mandy Horvath climbed the Manitou Incline on Monday on her hands becoming the first woman double amputee to accomplish the feat. Horvath returned to the base of the incline on Wednesday, April 25, 2018, to do some requested interviews by local medias. Horvath has become a celebrity since her climbing video has gone viral. (Photo by Jerilee Bennett, The Gazette) 

No thoughts could burden Mandy Horvath on the Manitou Incline. The physical pain was too distracting, and that was a kind of pain she could take: the burning in her chest and the aching in the hands she used to lift herself over the mountainside's 2,700-plus steps.

"Just get to the top." That was the only thought that occurred to the 25-year-old, who had endured a far more winding and grueling path on her way to the region's most punishing trail.

Days after the five-hour endeavor that made her the first double-amputee woman known to ascend the Incline, she sits before another TV camera. She's again making time between her full-time job and her evening classes at the University of Colorado at Colorado Springs.

Double amputee Mandy Horvath climbed the Manitou Incline on Monday on her hands. (Photo by Jerilee Bennett, The Gazette)  

She's again telling the story, returning to that July night of 2014 that ended in her waking up in her own blood beside the train tracks, pushing away paramedics who tried to tell her that her legs were crushed, gone.

Double amputee Mandy Horvath climbed the Manitou Incline on Monday on her hands. (Photo by Jerilee Bennett, The Gazette)  

Horvath tells the reporter that she was left there after a date-rape drug knocked her out at a small-town Nebraska bar.

"Whoa," the reporter remarks here at the base of the Incline. "OK, I didn't know that part of the story."

Horvath nods, her straight face breaking into that big smile for every hiker who stops to congratulate her. One woman hugs her. "I just have to say, you are so amazing."

Away from the camera and the admirers, Horvath says celebrity has been strange. "Yes, I was raising awareness," she says here at the end of Limb Loss Awareness Month. "But I wasn't expecting it to blow up quite like this."

She's an instant Incline legend, says Fred Baxter, who's seen countless achievements on the trail he's frequented almost daily since 1996. This might be the most impressive. "Just unbelievable," he says, at a loss for any more words.

Mandy Horvath is the first known double-amputee woman to ascend the Manitou Incline. She did so with two friends, who piggybacked her down Barr Trail on Monday, April 23. Photo courtesy: Mandy Horvath 

Also at a loss is Keith Topping, one of the two friends who accompanied Horvath up the Incline, piggybacking her on the way down Barr Trail. "Humbling," he says to the question of what it was like to be alongside her.

And then he chokes up and stays quiet for a long while.

"She's got a bunch of lemons she was given, you know. She's making lemonade," he says. "She's making the best of it."

For now she's happy, and that's not something she thought she'd ever be four years ago.

"I thought that life was over," she recalls thinking in the hospital bed.

The questions crept up as the depression deepened. Would she ever hunt again? Would she ever dance again? Would she ever be loved again?

The boyfriend she suspected of ruining her was out of her life. One day at the hospital, Horvath's mother called him out for changing his story with the cops, and the breakup followed, and that November he was found dead in the car that was still running.

Mandy Horvath lays in a hospital bed in July of 2014 after a train rolled over her legs, crushing them from above the knees. Photo courtesy: Lisa Horvath 

So then came again the question that Horvath had asked over and over as a teenager in rural Smithville, Mo.

Why? Why, why, why?

Why was she always so angry? Maybe it had something to do with her father being in and out of the house. Maybe it had something to do with her over-protective mother. Maybe she was hanging out with the wrong people. Maybe she drank too much.

Now in the hospital her mother was devastated at her bedside, brushing her hair as she slept, looking down where those long legs once were. Lisa Horvath called her baby "my little giraffee." That was back when she put little Mandy in dresses and heels, way back when.

A priest prayed in the room. "The doctor wasn't sure she was gonna make it," Lisa says. But one day Mandy looked at her mom and mouthed, "Leave me the (expletive) alone," and Lisa knew her baby would be fine.

Mandy Horvath takes a selfie at the top of the Manitou Incline on Monday, April 23. She became the first known double-amputee woman to make the grueling ascent. Photo courtesy: Mandy Horvath 

She would be fine, but she was broken. She cut off her hair and lay on the couch in baggy T-shirts and basketball shorts, showing no will as she tossed back some of the 22 pills that only kept the pain away briefly.

"I'm not gonna let her give up, hell no," her mother recalls thinking. "She's not gonna do that to me. I'm supposed to go first, that's the rule."

Lisa took her baby to rehab. Mandy pulled herself off the drugs and talked to people who made her feel better. She learned about a woman who ran races in prosthetics and felt inspired.

After treatment, she got a flower tattooed on her shoulder with the words: "Every storm runs out of rain."

Double amputee Mandy Horvath climbed the Manitou Incline on Monday on her hands. (Photo by Jerilee Bennett, The Gazette)  

But the rain still came. She moved to Colorado in 2016 for a boy - another relationship that ended badly. She got Edgar Allen Poe's "The Raven" tattooed on her bicep: "Leave my loneliness unbroken / quit the bust above my door! Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!"

Later, Horvath thought she could use humor to cope. The last time she was in the news was when her Tinder profile went viral - lifeproofbionicwoman sexualized her disability and got the masses laughing.

But often times it's hard to laugh. Back in Missouri, her mother still cries.

"Something that traumatic, you want answers, but sometimes you never get 'em," Lisa says. "You gotta go on. That's what she's trying to do."

Every July, Mandy gets this "doomed, depressed feeling," she says. "That's just PTSD."

And still, she says, she hasn't stopped wishing she had legs.

"That process is never-ending," she says.

But she has another tattoo that reminds her to live. The words across her chest could be seen as she crawled up the Incline in a tank top: "Tell me that I can't and I'll show you that I can."

At the summit she laid on her back, looking up at the sky where clouds gathered. She felt relief like she'd never felt.

Then, she came back down.

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Contact Seth Boster: 636-0332

Twitter: @SethBoster­­

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